I now know what happens to car windows when two people make out hard core.
You could say I had a pretty good day. (Don’t worry, lol I’m still a virgin)
To Be Unconscious…..
Do you know how it feels to want to run away?
To want to get away from it all.
Do you know what it feels like to want everything to go right, but instead it goes the exact opposite?
Do you know what it feels like to be scared of everything?
Do you know what it feels like to have not only reality slap you in the face but for the subconscious and dreams to rear its ugly head into your life?
Do you know how it feels to want something that can release you from the daily mental divide?
My roommate said only what my subconscious kept securely in its vault.
"You’re addicted to melatonin"
I don’t use it every night because I know the consequences—oversleeping, day-sleeping…stuff like that.
But when I do have time, like tonight, to sleep and awaken from the effects of melatonin, oh i take that opportunity and run with it.
The bad thing is, I know how dependent I get, so I sometimes force myself to not be able to access it.
Like tonight, also. I believe I purposefully left my melatonin at my dorm for break in order not to misuse it….*sigh*
I just wanted to write it down because I’ve noticed that I’ve attempted to put soooo many things in the place of self-harming.
It’s working but I keep jumping from activity to activity then even began self-medicating and I’m afraid that it’s going to eventually get worse and worse.
Guess I don’t know what to do.
y’all can probably tell what mood I’m in….
brb crying ^.^
When you’re pirouette goes so wrong so quickly
please i can’t…..
Falling out of a pirouette
It’s just like,
me…..right now lmbooo (I’ve been practicing a little too much today tryna get that triple again lol)